Today we’re talking about fear. Specifically, I want to share with you how fear manifested itself inside my life early on in this entrepreneurial journey.
At the time, I hadn’t been feeling very well for a while. I have a chronic health condition that had been in remission for a long, long time, and it really got triggered. So, my husband Jeff took me in to see my specialist, but I didn’t get to leave the hospital. They admitted me right away.
There was one day where Jeff brought all three kids to come and see me, and they were only 1, 3, and 5 years old at the time. I was sitting in a wheelchair, wearing the hospital gown, and I had the IV in my arm when they visited. Adele, our youngest, took one look at me, started crying and ran the other way. That absolutely crushed me and broke my heart to experience that. I don’t know if it was the IV, the wheelchair, the hospital gown, or the fact that I’d been away from home for a little while, but it crushed me.
And I knew what had put me into that hospital was fear. The specialists and the doctors wouldn’t have diagnosed it as that, but truthfully, I had so much stress and so much anxiety about starting this business and moving forward with my goals, asking would I be able to do it? Am I going to be able to support my family? What are people going to think? All of that worry, and all of that anxiety, manifested itself inside of my health.
This is really important for all of us. The lesson here is to really pay attention to the signs and the signals of fear, worry, and stress. Sometimes that unlived life starts to show up as struggle in our relationships, financial struggle, and for me, it really impacted my health.
I was so grateful for all the tools that I had in my tool belt, and for my own coaches and mentors that I could lean on in that time. It really helped me get reconnected to my vision, and why I started doing this. I had such a strong desire to have an impact on this planet and an impact on people’s lives. I wanted that personal growth for myself, and I had wanted that freedom and that flexibility to really be there for my kids.
Where are you in your journey right now? Do you have fear that’s manifesting itself? Maybe this fear has you by the neck, where it’s really trying to wrestle you to the ground. But fear isn’t always that obvious, sometimes it’s a lot more subtle. We get distracted, we get busy, we get doing things that aren’t moving us forward, or we get stuck. Fear can be very, very sneaky. It can disguise itself as practicality.
So how do you move through that? For me, two things were really key –
Reconnecting to my vision. Why was I doing what I was doing? What did I see myself doing? Why was it important?
Having a structure of support. I had invested in coaches and a mentor so that I could lean on them, and I could lean on their belief and their believing in me when I wasn’t believing in myself.
At that time, from that hospital bed, it would have been very easy to go back to the corporate world. Back to the nice office, benefit package, and pension plan. That would have been the easy move, but it wasn’t the life-giving move.
So, I recommitted myself. I decided. I’m doing this. And I’m going to do it differently. I am no longer going to let fear have that grip on me. I’m going to learn how to partner with that fear. Fear never goes away. As long as we’re growing, as long as we’re expanding, it is going to be a player in your life. But when you can learn to embrace that fear and walk with it instead of it really having you stuck, that’s the key.
I am so grateful for that part of me that recommitted – it’s really led me down this incredible path of service. Of course, fear is still a player. As I grow myself and, grow my business, grow and expand and move into my goals and my dreams, it’s not going to go away.
Learn how to embrace it, learn how to befriend it, and you truly can live a life that you love.